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Monday, July 1st, 2002
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8:26 am - In other news...
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Procrastinating around as I've been given a huuuge fic to beta, and I'm not really in the critical mood. Love TJ to bits, nothing against her writing - just me being a lazy old sod, really.
Oh - And I've signed up for a LiveJournal, but still waiting for the PayPal thing to go through. Goodbye purile adolesants, hello people I know, and a customised design by the wonderful wonderful Elfie, whom I heart very much.
Also - got the makings of an angst-fic whirring around...something to do with the fact that Spike *isn't* Angel, and William probably wasn't as strong willed as Liam, and overall corruptness. Should be fun.
current mood:  chipper
current music: Michelle Branch - "If Only She Knew"
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| Friday, June 21st, 2002
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1:36 pm - Fan of who exactly?
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So here I sit, innocently channel-hopping when I stumble upon 'Richard and Judy' interviewing none other than James Marsters at the SFX event doohicky. Which is all fine and dandy, although they appear to know less about 'Buffy' than my near comatose cat. James smiles, humours the interviewer and whatnot. Then they introduce a 'fan', who apparantly models himself on James. Well these words are scary enough, no? But onto our innocent 'fan', who appears, attired in typical Spike regalia. So, by doing this you are emulating James? Don't think so buddy.
So maybe the guy's more a fan of Spike than James, and the interviewer is just a prat. But people, please get the distinction right. If you're going to call anyone Spike, then go call Joss him. And I do that was terrible English, but I'm rather pissed off today and so don't give a toss.
But James is still cute, even for an old bloke...
Plus, 'Spiderman' rocks.
current mood:  bitchy
current music: Jimmy Eat World - 'Sweetness'
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| Wednesday, May 29th, 2002
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9:49 am - Hmm...Interesting...
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7:55 am - Inspired by a quote of Joss'...
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(Haven't seen the finale yet, haven't managed to get hold of a transcript. So bear with me. Also, this is a random snippet of crap, really written just to amuse myself...)
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"Give her what she deserves", Spike snarled, ready to dish out some first class revenge on the insufferable bitch who'd been making his unlife hell for the past four years.
"Very well. We will give you a soul."
"No - !" he manegd to scream before a hand was laid on his still-bleeding chest. A flash and it was all over.
Over a hundred years of torturous work washed over him, and he staggered back, overwhealmed.
"What the fuck is this?" Spike demanded, holding up the slim piece of rubber to the shamen.
"A sole. Weren't you listening?" grinned the other demon. "Rubber sole, y'get it?" nudging Spike in the ribs. He paused. "So go make with the Yoko-Beatles act again, and this time get it right!
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What? Like they'd introduce another vampire with a soul? That's so lame! *g*
Geez I'm in such a stupid mood right now...
current mood:  silly
current music: Feeder - 'Day In and Day Out'
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| Tuesday, May 28th, 2002
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3:16 pm - Another survery thing. Boredom strikes again
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Questions copied off Obsessedmuch.net.
1. Complete the sentence: Angel is to Buffy: the Vampire Slayer as ____ is to _____?
Marshmallows to hot chocolate. Needed, and just adds that touch of perfection that the hot chocolate doesn't quite reach without it.
2. Which of the main characters (i.e. those in the credits) is your favourite?
Cordelia. I still love her, even though she's gone soft.
3. Which of the recurring cast is your favourite?
Lorne.
4. Favourite 3 episodes?
'In The Dark', 'Reunion' and er...too many, but I'll go with 'Birthday' for now.
5. Favourite 2 quotes?
The whole speech Spike gives from the beginning of 'In The Dark'. Fabulous.
"I'm the Host. Have you met me? I never shut up!"
6. Favourite canon pairing(s)?
Umm...Uh.. :: strains :: Guess it's gonna have to be ANgel/Darla. Oh - does Dru/Darla count? Please?!
7. Favourite UC het pairing(s)?
Angel/Cordy. Kinda.
8. Favourite boyslash pairing(s)?
Wes/Gunn, Angel/Lorne
9. Favourite femslash pairing(s)?
Darla/Dru. Cordy/Fred.
10. Favourite other m/m pairing?
Angel/Wes. Lindsey/Angel.
11. Another Sunnydale resident or ex-resident arrives in LA to join the team. You get to choose who. Name them.
Spike. Well duh.
12. Where is Lindsey now and what (or who) is he doing?
Off on a farm, sueing chickens. Having rabid sex with the jail-break Faith.
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2:53 pm - Minority?
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So am I in the minority in not wanting to kill Joss over the season finale of 'Buffy'? I think that [too late to ignore spoiler] giving Spike a soul [/spoiler] was a great twist. C'mon. We all saw it coming.
"Make me the man I was before." etc. It meant he was either turning human or getting a soul. And they did it.
Yes, it does seem to detract from Angel's 'specialness/uniqueness', and this could be a potential flaw, or a great little twist, provided it's played right. No-one want to have another Angel. It's unoriginal, pointless, pisses the fans and the writers off. So hey - they've got to do something different. So what are some of the options, according to me?:
a) He's Spike. But just giving more of a damn.
b) Welcome back William the Bloody Awful Poet. Complete with soppy romantic notions, possible poetry, and feeling terrible. Remember, William was a good man. A bit of a wimp and a sap, but in no way evil.
c) The soul simply drives him insane. Insane enough to want to kill Buffy et al...
d) He doesn't get a human soul. Or he gets a 'bad' one. One that could increase his capacity for evil, if that's possible.
e) He gets the 'real' soul, hates it so much that he simnply gets it removed after a few episodes.
These all have their own potential. Personally, I rather like the idea of a 'good' Spike. At least for a little while. But a complete spinesless twit (remember how long it took Angel to sort himself out?!), for an entire season could be dire. Hmm. Well naturally it all rests on Joss.
I may not have enjoyed some parts of the 6th season of 'Buffy', but as ever, I await the new one with eager anticipation.
My advice is to see what Joss does with this situation. Don't go freaking out till you know what's going on!
current mood: hopeful
current music: Sue Willett - 'Heroin'
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| Friday, May 24th, 2002
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9:34 am - My rapid deterioration into insanity...
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(This is possibly very strong evidence of why I should be locked up. Dru’s POV after the events of ‘Grave’. Brownie points if you find the not-so-obscure pun)
'Ghost in the Spiderwebs'
Tied his face up with string, they did. Little beetles…scurry scurry… They scratch and scratch, don’t they my love? All wrapped up in twine, little ribbons everywhere, extending out, touching the light places. Light burns. Mustn’t forget that. Not one of them.
Fear in your eyes, little William.
Shh. I know.
Little ribbons slicing through those twitchy veins… Little ribbons, little people. So many screams. You made them scream so beautifully my sweet one. Sounded like ripe fruit bursting from the vine. Makes my tummy all rumbly. But you won’t feed me now, will you? Couldn’t before, won’t now. Bad boy.
Silly boy. I saw…I saw it all my darling, but I took you in because I’m a good Mummy. Just ask Miss Edith…Oh. Forgot. She got burnt. She wasn’t paying attention, you know that, don’t you. Understand. Her breath was so cold…
Did you like that fire, my love? In Paris. Flames licking me all over. Made me feel warm again. Then you dropped me in the river. We weren’t pleased with your conduct my good boy. Made me all cold again.
You’re still cold. Like daddy….but not. Why won’t you let me see more?
You have a ghost in those spiderwebs, my Spike. Haunted. All shivery. Don’t suppose you’d want to come and play anymore with grandmummy. You never liked her anyway, did you sweet William? Her eyes had fear, too, once. I should have ripped them out.
You face is wet. Smooth skin. Little streams everywhere. Glasses…paper. A good man….bad monster. Scratch scratch.
The demon drink helps the pain. Don’t you remember, my dear? Absinthe makes the heart grow fonder, not forgetful. Foolish child. The little people are still crawling all over. Black faces and crimson pin-pricks. Paper cuts and my dark knight, all covered in blood. Can I lick you? I promise to still be bad.
Do you still love me?
I asked, and now you run away yet again! You shouldn’t go until the key meets the lock. Click. I’ll tell you a secret. They fit. Hush now. I’ll be here for you. You’ll remember your place my dear boy. With me. Eternal.
current mood: weird
current music: Spineshank - 'New Disease'
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| Thursday, May 23rd, 2002
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11:32 am - draft snippet
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(This is straight from the brain to keyboard. No amendments, no checks. Just a stream of consciousness dropped onto the web.)
She wished Xander hadn't lauughed so much. There was irony, and there was *this*. He had seen him, and the tears of hysteria has sprung forth until he could barely breathe. He had come round to kill him, but after seeing this...he knew it was harsher to leave him like that. Dawn's faith in Xander had been shaken by that. She loved him so much for being Xander, for being heart-of-the-Scoobies-guy and saving everyone, but with this. This was not right.
The sobbing had all but ceased now, and Dawn could feel a cramp starting to tickle its way from her toes to her thighs. But if she moved then she knew she'd break this...moment? It wasn't a moment. It was painful. It was awkward, and she wanted to go home now. But the bleched blond stain remained, melting into her lap.
She sighed softly and he flinched.
Is this what Angel was like, she couldn't help but wonder.
Looking around the room she tried to dicern where the floor ended and the sheets of paper began. So much white everywhere...scribblings...mostly non-sensical. A flock of peppered doves. Some of the sheets were numbered, the tip of 'victim 156' was poking out from under the pile. Geez, she thought numbly. She didn't even know that was anatomically possible.
All that ould be heard was the sound of her own breathing. In and out The one constant in the room.
Tentatively, her hand snaked out and she stroked the short crop of hair. He didn't move, of course. The last time he did anything at all was 20 minutes ago when the howls had been reduced to sobs, and then the sobs to nothing.
She wished Buffy was here.
It was almost like he was normal at first. He had come crashing back in, seen her curled up on his chair, watching an old re-run, and the tirade of hatred had begun. He had paced, shouted, hits the walls in frustration, blamed Buffy, and as she slowly edged her way out, her hand was caught in a vice-like grip, and he *looked* at her. And she knew.
One word.
Please.
And so she had stayed. Pitying this poor creature she thought she used to know.
The pins and needles had turned to knives and swords, but still she didn't move. She just continued in her gentle, furtive attempt at calming him down. Perhaps it would eventually work.
He started to whisper now. Damnit, he'd *memorised* every crime, every act of wanton violence, every bad *thought*, all written down. and now she couldn't help but hear.
She didn't even know if he realised she was still sitting there. But she didn't dare move. Not now. There were too many broken things around here without adding Spike to the mix. Maybe he was already broken...
In a fit of creativity, she changed the route her fingertips took, this time stroking behind the ear to the nape of the neck. The whispering was gradually starting to die.
He never did know when to leave well alone did he?
The weight on her lap eased considerably, and she saw blue eyes staring up at her, waiting for an explanation, forgiveness, hate... Waiting for *anything*.
She really wished that it was Buffy here.
current mood:  artistic
current music: Pretty Blue Gun - 'girl in a guilded cage'
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| Wednesday, May 22nd, 2002
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11:46 am - Lack of originality
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Stolen from...everyone else:
1. What ONE thing do you most love about "Buffy: The Vampire Slayer"?
Slightly cop-out answer, but it's got to be the writing.
2. What are your TWO favorite seasons?
Hmm...Definately S2 (which naturally everyone puts down because of the over shit-starting-to-hit-fan atmosphere, and arrival of two of the best characters around IMHO), and what else? At the moment I'm gonna say season three. Purely for the fact that it's probably the season I've seen the most.
3. What are your THREE favorite lines (from the show)?
Currently they are...
"I may be love's bitch, but at least I'm man enough to admit it" (classic *g*)
"Poor thing. She's an orphan. Her owner died...Without a fight" (yes, technicaly I do realise that's 3 lines...)
"My hat has a cow on it"
4. What are your FOUR favorite fanfic stories?
- Donna and Jess' 'Days Of our Unlives'
- Spirit's 'Clockwork Vampire'
- Zero's 'The Brighter, Cold Moon'
- Av's 'R.E.M'series.
5. What are your FIVE favorite episodes?
- Fool For Love
- The Zeppo
- Lover's Walk
- Tabla Rasa
- Band Candy
Favourite villain(s):
Does Spike even count anymore? Ditto with Faith. Dru.
Favourite canon 'ship:
Willow/Tara
Favourite non-canon het pairing:
Angel/Faith. Oh I don't know...
Favourite Xander slash pairing:
Xan/Angel
Favourite Angel slash pairing:
Angel/Spike
Favourite Oz slash pairing:
Oz/Giles
Favourite other m/m slash pairing:
Wes/Gunn
Favourite femmeslash pairing:
Darla/Dru
Episode that disturbs me too much to watch in its entirety:
'Crush'. I'm so lame.
Episode that I like despite the fact that many people don't:
'Inca Mummy Girl'
Well, that's for...posterity or something.
current mood:  thoughtful
current music: Barenaked Ladies - 'She's On Time'
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8:59 am - Breathe...
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Well, I've just read the detailed episode guide for 'Two to Go' and 'Grave', and in my fresh spirit of eloquence can I just say...:
Fucking Hell!
They did the - With the - And Willow really - And then Spike...
Gah.
Thing is, I'm about 6 weeks behind.
I must see this.
:: lets a breath out ::
current mood: giddy
current music: The Dandy Warhols - 'Godless'
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| Sunday, May 19th, 2002
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5:33 pm - Tidbit
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My mother phoned the other day, scarily enough finding herself becoming quite invvolved in the latest season of BtVS.
However, she had one problem:
"Who's that character they keep calling 'Don'?"
Apparantly, he's Buffy's sister...
:: snerks in a truly English fashion ::
current mood: amused
current music: Devil Doll - 'Faith in Love'
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| Tuesday, May 14th, 2002
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7:07 am - "...and that's..."
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"I know I'm a monster. But you treat me like a man. And that's..." (Spike, The Gift)
So what was the rest of that line?
Version 1.0
...And that's more than I could ever expect, y'know? I've done. Well, lets face it, done a whole lot of bloody stupid things, but still you and the bit...tolerate me. Yeah, I think that's the right word for it. Not that I ever had much luck with 'em. Words, I mean.
But, after all that lame-assed bitch took a liking to me with her fuck-off skinning knife, things have been different. I know it. Not just delusional this time. I know it. Can feel it, nagging at me like some itch I can't scratch. No good tearing at the flesh - been there, feel like shit afterwards. But I know you don't hate me as much as you did. c'mon, admit it Slayer. You're scared I might just, I dunno, maybe not go all Ponce-ified, but...change. And that's not we're supposed to do, now is it pet? Funny thing is, you know both sides better than anyone.
I said, not too long ago, as I recall, that we don't change. Demons. All just the same. Load of bollocks that was. We do. We have to. Course, most of its just change from one snack to another, but me...Oh yeah. I'm the Big Bad don'tcha know? Me, caught following the Slayer round like a whipped puppy? You'd better believe it, mate, 'cos I cure as Hell don't.
But, not that I want the whipped thing, mind, but well, maybe this saving puppies malarky could be interesting. It'll make you happy, which'll make me happy. But that's not what you want, is it? Goodness for goodness' sake, right? I got that. Long time ago, but I did get it. It's like...I knew it and now its getting more and more difficult to re-learn. So, does that make it impossible then? I could try to try if you know what I mean. I'm not him. Never want to be, thankyou so very bleedin' much. But...I could do my own thing.
Well well, would you look at that. You've got that whole glowy thing going. No, don't stop it. I like it. In fact, made me feel pretty good. Is that what it's like? To make others feel good, get a kitten out of a tree and all that crap? Interesting.
Yeah. might just give it a go, see how we do.
Treat me enough like a man, maybe I can start acting like one.
current mood: optimistic
current music: Humbucker - 'Count The Time'
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| Monday, May 13th, 2002
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4:10 am - :: sigh ::
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Anyone else tired of the 'Seeing Red' debate by now?
I'm not saying don't express you opinions, or don't rant (like I'd ever have/want that right anyway!), but :: sigh ::, I'm personally getting kinda sick of it all. He did it, he shouldn't have.
Spike = Vampire. Buffy = Slayer/*human*.
C'mon - like it's ever gonna work out?
And the funny thing is, I went straight off any Spuffy leanings as soon as they actually started to take it all seriously. Gah - best stick with slash.
(It just hasn't sunk in yet about Tara...)
current mood:  tired
current music: Feeder - 'So Well'
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| Friday, May 10th, 2002
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11:46 pm - A character's development...Or lack thereoff
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So - an entirely unplanned, unchecked and straight from brain to fingers ramble about that seemingly irrepresible bastard Spike. And I mean that in a good way. Well mostly.
What's going on here then?
Basically, I pretty much adore(d?) the character. Bascuse, 'Buffy's' a fictitious show, the characters can *never* be real, no matter how hard we want it. It may be an ongoing series, but these characters will, in essance, always be stationary in some sense. When we watch an old tape of the first season, for instance, we cannot ever truly say that these characters will ever make different choices that will lead to different situations. Of course, making the choices is a fun idea, but that's what fanfiction is for. In the show, it has been ordained, more or less.
And so to Spike. He's a fictitious character. Therefore, he ain't real. Especiall as the whole vamprire thing goes... So, although somtimes I feel bad for sticking up for the 'Bad Guy', I think it's important to remember that this is only a theretical situation and position. I like him because he's cool, witty, and has a couple of minor issues that I could actually relate to. Non-homicidal, of course. But as for the more disturbing characteristics, such as this unhealthy obsession with Buffy, and of course the murderous impulses, this I would never condone. It goes against my basic principles of ethics! But this is a *fantasy* show and it gives me the chance to play devil's advocate, and basically be extremely callous.
But nevertheless, this doesn't mean I still don't get squicky over the things I have seen, and heard that this charcter will do. I haven't seen 'Seeing Red' just yet, and the idea that he attempt to rape her both repells me, yet elicts a strange form of sympathy - perhaps that isn't the right word - pity. It's really quite pitiful that he's hit so low. I can't hate him. I can just cringe now. And in a way, I think that's worse.
I think, and this is perhaps where I contradict myself even more, I want to see him hit one extreme or the other. It bothers me, and naturally this means Joss is doing a good job, but I think I'd like to see him either evil (a la season 2, where it was sweet love for Drusilla), or a fairly good kinda guy. But of course I want realistic character development, and naturally this can't happen over the course of one episode. We ned the 'messy' parts. Hence my dihlemma. And my atrocious spelling. But either way I just wish he'd *pick* a path to take. But damnit, these things are never easy. Especially as the character actually has no control over this at all!
So arg - it seems I'm stuck.
The whole season (6) seems to reflect the fact that everyone's getting tired. Tired of life, tired of playing a part, both on and off-screen. And frankly, aside a couple of people, rather tired in the age department. Not that I think this matters, but still...
So what to do with Spike?
Hmph. I guess it's all left in Joss' hands, and in them we must trust. Still doesn't mean he can't drive us crazy as Hell in the meantime of course.
Well, I meant to write so much in this, but somehow I can't seem to either fit it all in, or properly articulate my thoughts right now. Probably a mixture of both, I suspct. But I can always add more...Perhaps even without a cop-out of saying 'Just leave it to Joss'. It makes me appear even more of a sheep than I already am.
current mood:  confused
current music: Smashmouth - 'All Star'.
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| Sunday, April 21st, 2002
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8:09 am
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7:57 am - Still dead...
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Hmm...So I apparantly updated this thing yesterday when I created it, but I haven't seen anything go up on my page yet!
Not that I've got anything wildly profound to add right now, but I'm egotistical enough to want to see my name in print. Plus of course, the Deadjournal's much less elitist than the Live one, and yes - that does mean that I'm bitter and jealous. *g*
So - let's see if this works then, shall we?
current mood: complacent
current music: Jawbox - '68'
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